Seeing My Vision....

       How many times will God allow you to start your "life" over again? I ask myself this question as I plan to make this trial run in the am to Las Vegas for the next 6 weeks. "Is this a good decision?"..............


        I made this sporadic decision on the way to my part time job 3+ weeks ago. I'd also decided to quit that same part time job, once I'd arrived. I needed to be able to focus on the last few weeks of school, and that included finals. I had just lost my apartment, and had finally come to grips that shit was starting to get "real". Note to self:  pseudo-business and friendship do not mix.....My cape was in the cleaners, and so I was finding it hard to function as a 'Super-She-ro", while securing shelter, attending school, and attempting to get to work at the same time. During "therapy" I'd learned to prioritize, and focus, but my emotions were on an all time "SCREAM", and the fetal position is never an option. Luckily, I was blessed to have "a little change" in the bank, and as usual God was on deck.
    
      Once the decision was made everything else was a non-friggin factor, and it was all about the planning. But, you know the old adage. "If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans" ..............Ha  ha ha Hell!
I ran into more obstacles than you'd see at a miniature golf course. But, I wouldn't stop, I couldn't stop, I prayed, called on a few Sistah-friends from back in my hey-day, and Yes! I did me some boo-hoo'ing, but I kept it pushing.What other choice does a Diva have? Fearlessness or Bust!

      I am always "preaching" that God is only testing you speech........... "God does not give us the same test, each test is different. You pass one, and he gives you another test. They are designed to make you stronger, and to prepare you for the blessings God has in-store for you". It was time for me to suck it up, and to pass this test, and get ready for my blessing! My son Amir made it plain when he said..... "nobody can see your vision like you can. Life provides us lessons to direct and perfect our vision, but they cannot be considered lessons until you have learned from them". Boy! Did I learn, and the best lessons are either costly, or painful or BOTH.

"You gone learn today".....

1. If it seems too good to be true, then it probably is........

2. Do not take friendship for granted.

3. Depend on Y.O.U.

Oh yea! The answer to the initial proposed question............. "How many times will God allow you to start your "life" over again?

As many times as you need...............He's just GOoD like that.

*Keep the lessons/blessings coming.........Amen.



  

I Promise..........(SomeMoreRandomShitToo!)

I Promise........ ..I will be true to my REAL SELF (whoever that bitch is on any given Sunday)...........Fuck 
 my Representative!


I Promise...........To keep a tight limit on the bullshit I tell myself, and zero tolerance on the B.S. I acce

I Promise...........To be just nice enough, but only when I really feel it's obligatory.
(Oh' don't act brand new)
                       
I Promise...........To always say the ugly baby is cute.

I Promise...........To NEVER fake an orgasm.

I Promise...........Myself to work on my procrastination problem. Damn! Damn! Damn!

I Promise...........To remember that sometimes "Liking" is more important than Loving.

I Promise...........To continue to GROW in myself.

I Promise...........To continue to LEARN for myself.

I Promise...........To always LOVE MYSELF!..Smooches

I Promise...........To Honor my Parents,(Yes! Raymond too).

I Promise............To remain Grateful, Thankful, Humble, and Appreciative.

I Promise............Only Me.