I’m still
here……
Things have
certainly changed in my small Universe since I last dipped down this way. It’s
been well over a year since my last mediocre post, dated January 2013. It’s sad
to say, it was just page filler. What I originally envisioned for Love, Life
& Bullsh*t was a safe place where a Sistah could express herself, and “release”
without judgment. That was the one justification that I allowed myself. most things
where kept under wraps. No! I’m not about do a “tell-all” ……. well not yet anyway,
some “truths” aren’t ready. My touching on a few personal issues and merely scratching
the surface didn’t help me that mess was festering. It made me comfortable and
complacent with sifting my feelings…. So I wrote “pretty”. What’s that Beyonce’ sang about “Pretty hurts-It’s
the Soul that needs the surgery”, and by suppressing that internal bullsh*t I
was keeping my spirit in critical condition. My soul was in the I.C.U. The shit
got real for me, and I had to admit my fears, doubts, hopes, dreams, hang ups
and hook ups. I know it just ain’t me either; we all got jewels we need to
share. I was hurting inside. Once I returned to past post memories, and realized
how “Shallow Hal” they all seemed (I found them to be "cute, but not as
fine as me”), and knew it was the right time for a make-over. My hiatus was self imposed due to my chronic procrastination
and the apparent vicious cycle of bullsh*t. Procrastination; a nasty, and ornery
recurring habit that kept me locked in an alibi. “I’ll do it later”. Simply put; it’s time to talk about some of
that stuff that makes me say "Damn". I would hope to think I have
evolved; I pray more, I think more critically-discerning, I plan more-not
better, but more. I still got to get that shit together, I doubt less, and yet
I am enough. I always have this feeling of anticipation. What am I waiting for?
That’s that Bullsh*t! Let me clarify some “potent” stuff………I am writing for me,
for us. Some people may be offended by language and content. Some people will assume
I am referring to them, if so I will call your name. Some people will judge,
and feel the need to reprimand, some people may never join in on a discussion,
but sit back and absorb, Welcome. There is going be a little sum sum for every
Diva present; nasty, educational, erotic, sexual, praying, praising, sharing, caring giving,
taking, lessons taught, lessons given.…….. No Filter. No Bullshit. Fyi- I ain’t
gonna be writing long post all the time. It might just say Help! *** Diva
O.U.T.
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ReplyDeleteI must have missed this. I Love your truth, it's so admirable. I look forward to a future post! Love you Moma Shaster 😘
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